Looking back on 2016

Hey everyone this year been a roller coaster year for me personally. The was three Deaths in my family, but the last one is the one that hit me personally the hardest. So let start from where else the beginning of the year. January besides work not much happen besides getting sick and a cousin of mine pasting away no wasn't close to him or his family really. I went to the service before work and that day showed up for my shift like nothing happened. that my January in a nut shell. February wasn't all that new worthy either another cousin of mine ( i should say these cousin were my 3rd cousins and not to sound mean older then my grandma) died now this one i had to take sometime off work ( a Saturday that was scheduled) so i could go with my grandma. March not much happen it was quite. April i help my grandma tear up the tile and put new tile down in our kitchen and i say it look awesome other then that not much. May only thing that happen was my boyfriend birthday and the start of the planning for the July road trip.June was a slow month not much happen news worthy. July the first week of July i had off cause where i work shut down for a week around the 4th with that said me and my grandma dragged my boyfriend down to Florida two meet my dad( for the first time) and go to Disney ( for the first time). This was the first time i drove on the interstate, and my grandma said i did okay of coarse the first day of driving i push myself and kept driving until after 10 so we could cross the Florida state line. when we got to my father he had other plans set up and was gone half the day and when we finally got to where he planned to take us it fell though and cost me $100 more then i planed ( my grandma was going to pay but i wouldn't let her) after that we went back to my dad's places where we saw fireworks that night and my boyfriend saw how back of a drinking problem my dad had. after that it was Disney time four parks in two days i  know we were crazy, but we had some fun even though i got sun burned ( my boyfriend fault for my back it was worst there then my chest) and killed my feet i had blisters on the back and between my big toe and the next toe it hurt so bad that when we got off the bus at the resort i took my saddles off on the second day. we sent time with my aunt that live down there. About two weeks later my grandma got sick that Wednesday i had my cousin take my grandma to the hospital while i went to work ( i had just called in the Friday before cause i was sick) my grandma said everything hurt her and she wasn't up and going like she normally was. that Friday she said she was feeling better and was going to stop taking the meds the doctor gave her and was going to go see my aunts doctor the following week. that never happen i pulled a 10 hour shift Friday last minute notice, and i had plans with my boyfriend to go to Walmart after i got off. When i finally went to sleep it was 4 in the morning i was woken up by my boyfriend who let the cat i had  in my room ( My grandma started feeding it and brought it in after it followed me home one raining night and we was keeping away from the other one until get got declawed) out and had to get her real quick, but anyhow back to what i was saying he woke me up at 7:30 that morning say Dee your grandma laying on the bed funny and she not moving. my sleep fog mind jump out of bed but looked at him confused as hell and i yelled at him to get the cat before she could hurt sugar. i slid on pj shorts and went in to my grandma room and i tried to wake her. i tired three times and just look at my boyfriend helplessly thinking if she was okay she'll kill me for calling 911 for her, but she wasn't okay she was gone the cop got here and try cpr on her and they took her to the hospital i remember when everyone was running in and out of the house just pacing back and forth both my boyfriend and aunt that lives with me try to hug me but i brush them both off i could stand still i just couldn't. i went to the hospital ( i wasn't driving ) first person i call was my dad it was his mother he had a right to know then i called my cousin and got her to meet us at the hospital my aunt had all ready called my other aunt that lives in the same state as i do. so when we got there they took us back to that little room and wanted me to wait for a doctor no one there yet but me and my boyfriend i sat down and looked straight ahead i heard him say maybe she okay i just shook my head and say it bad they wouldn't put us back here other wise he grab me and hugged me to his side and then the doctor came in and told me she didn't make it. i just drop my head in my hand still not crying just in complete shock he ask if i wanted to go back and said i'd wait for my cousin and that when she walked in and we told her and she fell back against the wall and i could see the tears in her eyes as we went to go back my two aunts came in and i just shock my head and said she gone  my one aunt( these are my grandma sister and she was the oldest of them) the youngest came over and hug the other one crying  and my step uncle came in and as if she was okay and his wife said no and he just look like someone told him Santa Claus wasn't real. we went back and saw her the hole time i'm thinking and saying i got to tell my dad we got out and i called my dad it went to voice mail and someone mentioned my aunt in Florida and my phone start ring and it my dad i told him and it was just shock from him. after we called my aunt in Florida we came back to the house and started the posses for what had to be done. i went on with the rest of my day as normal as possible. Monday i went in to work i was numb as could be i had said the words she was died since Saturday. i went in a little earlier then normal i didn't say anything to anyone until i one of the woman that used to help in my department a lot went i was on thirds she called me over and i thought my boyfriend had told her what happen and when i told her she said no he had told her anything. so after talking to her and went back to find my boss i went in and put my stuff down where i normally sat and saw him leaving the office i went in and called his name and told him he called me out of the office and looked at me and asked what happen and if i was okay. now he wasn't the first person to ask that question by the frist person i told that i wasn't okay went went up  to the front office and set up so i could have the week off and i went back didn't clock in or anything went up there and got that figured out and i went back and told everyone one else i worked with well almost everyone since i was leaving and wanted to get out of there as soon as possible. i took that week off to get my mind back on track and to get every sorted out what was paid and what wasn't and paying for everything i had to pay. and pick up my grandma since she was cremated ( it what she asked for )then after that week saw a lawyer broke down at work and had a little thing for us to stay good bye to her after she had been gone for three weeks then in ( we are in well in August guys i cat my leg open at work and have to have stitches ugh so after that my dad came up around my birthday and cause drama like he always does and left on my birthday. and since then i'm just try to make it though the day  and the holidays with out my grandma so 2017 is the first full year i'll have to face with out her and so far i''ve done good so bring it on