Random post : not feeling good

well, it that time of year where people get sick often and I'm will say I'm not sick sick i just feel a head cold coming on so i decided since hubby has to work overtime today I'm going to curl up in bed and say fuck the world. Now normally I don't stay in bed when I'm sick at all i might stay home but unless i can't keep my eye open I'm out in the living room and sometimes I've even pushed myself too much and try to clean this house of mine, or guilt myself for not cleaning and just being a bum all-day. Today however i said fuck it and am taking time for myself self so what do i need when I'm spending a much need day in bed? well, I'll tell you 1. Drinks rather it water, juice, or soda just something to drink. 2. snack just something to munch on that won't be too messy chips, fruit just something simple. 3. and comfy blanket my feet get cold easy so I tend to always have a blanket of some kind this time of year recently it a cute and soft throw that my in-laws got me for Christmas.  4. is a book or multiple books as i write this my physical book is A Sin Such as This by Ellen Hopkins book 2 of the love lies beneath series. and 5. is my phone or computer my brain gets bored easy so just something else besides reading to keep my brain entertain. these are my " sick" day in bed must and hope everyone is well and if not this helps you somehow bye.

The Past Ten Years

Ten years ago i was halfway through my 10th Grade year of high school still very close off to people and not trusting people outside of my family. I had what I would call " school Friends" where I'd take to them at school and eat lunch with them and talk to them online, but I wouldn't hang out with them or go out somewhere and have fun. I rarely left the house on my own to go anywhere even up the street to the store to get a pop. Now ten year is and isn't a long time at the moment it feels like it slipping through your fingers and then when your sitting looking back. A lot has happened, and change in the past ten years one i graduated from high school as well as two years of college i had three jobs and found love as well as gotten Married. Now there were a lot of lost cousins, aunts, uncles, and the biggest one my grandma. Now i did have people come back n to my life like my mom and my uncle from her side of the family sadly my grandpa on my mom's side of the family pasted aw before i got the chance to see him again. I've learned to cut people out of my life that not good for me to be around, and i know there this big thing about who they are family, but even family can be bad for your health. I have a family that has a very toxic personality and i don't need people who are going to bring me down and or put me down as well as those who are close to my heart. No one perfects well all screwup and we don't need them thrown in her faces, by people who can't check themselves. I also don't need someone who is a big trigger for my depression and anxiety in my life as well as someone who won't take responsibility for their own lives and save themselves from themselves. hopefully in the next year it a lot more positive than negative, and that I can keep getting healthy, because i know the last ten year wasn't 100% heathy for once o it i hide my self away from the world and let my past and what i had gone through control so much of my life to the point where it was miserable. I want to count on me more and not other for my happiness I also want to be able to focus more on my mental health because for so much of the past 20 years I've been depressed and so ready to just end it all that who knows what would have happened if i hadn't met my husband when i did. Now the People in my life now I'm happy with and no it not perfect, but it good enough for me, and I'm happier then i was at the start of the last decade. So here to learning to love Ourselves, finding happiness within, and become a healthier, and better me.

Readathon day 3

Day two was good now let see the states for day three

Champion the graphic novel:( finished)

The Girl From the Other Side vol 1: ( Finished)

Scared Beasts Vol 1: 112 pages (finished)

Pandora Hearts Vol. 1: 13 

Orange Vol.1 : 

You Have Arrived at Your Destination: (Finished)

Randomize: ( finished)

Just One Year: ( finished)

Curtsies and Conspiracies: 144 ( finished)

Thirteen: 128 

Readathon day 1

Day one of this readathon i had this one prepared so i started around midnight so the goal for each day is to finish a manga every day so on day one i read

Champion the graphic novel: 160 ( finished) 

The Girl From the Other Side vol 1: 90

Scared Beasts Vol 1:

Pandora Hearts Vol. 1:

Orange Vol.1 : 

You Have Arrived at Your Destination: 1%-100% (Finished)

Randomize: 1%- 100% ( finished)

Just One Year: 196

That is day one in a nut shell Come back tomorrow for day 2 of the manga Readathon  

Personal blog talk: growing up books, movies, music and games

hey, guys, today post was inspired by booksandlala video rereading childhood favorites/ 5th Grade. so I decided to just take a walk down memory lane. I was born in 1992 so as a small child I watch rugrats and ahh monsters, and a show that was a little older for me Are You Afraid of the Dark. just from those shows, you can tell I was a Nick girl, but I did watch cartoon network as well Scooby-Doo was my all-time fave. Now around 2000 I started watching Disney channel but that was later as of the '90s that was a thing in my mind, but Disney movies were little mermaid, snow white, cinderella, and many more I would also watch back to the future my fave was the second one. I also would watch the big comfy couch and other PBS shows I stoped that with the move back to Florida because I was forced to watch it all day long while I live in Alabama. At this time I didn't read at all, and I don't remember being read too. I also didn't play video games unless I was visiting family friends in Alabama and that was super Mario bros. Music I didn't have my own say so much so all I listen to was country music I have detail memories of listening to Alabama while my grandma was driving to Alabama so with that said. That 1992-1999. up to age 7.

Now 2000-2006 

This is when I really started gaining my own taste in things I started watching Disney channel and what is now call the CW And I was a die-hard fan of my shows like I would keep track of when next episodes came or with Disney channel original movies I knew what it was air and I would keep track and I had to watch it that day. during this time I also started breaking away from country music because of my father, a cousin, and girl scouts as well as school. in 2000 I got my first game system the Nintendo 64, I can't remember if Banjo or Mario was my first game, but I do remember my intro to Zelda back in the day toy r us sometimes would send out VHS tapes with game promos and we got one and Majora mask was one it and I just had to show my grandma and I begged her to get it for me little did i know my grandma was end up loving the game as well along with donkey kong 64 we fell in love with those type of games and my gaming life started I still wouldn't read during this period it wasn't until the end of 2005 before I really started reading for my own pleasure and not just for school I was the type where I would start a book and get halfway through and not finish the book like the first book I remember reading not for school because we had silent reading time in school was campjelly jam which yes is a goosebump book. I also remember getting yell at my aunt to go to bed because I was staying up reading it one night because I wanted to know the ending. Now i don't count this book as the starting point of my book love that goes to because of winn-dixie that drew me in for the start and i would read whenever i could. Then came the first narina movie and i had to go get the book it was based on it blew my young mind. during this time perioded, I went from watching Lizzie McGuire to watching One Tree Hill My movie Taste went from Finding Nemo To Final destination my love for horror movies started and for teen drama as well. In 2006 i movies from Florida to Ohio and as my old shows went away i grew up to watch other things that were my taste for 2000-2006 from age 7-14. 

Moving on to 2006-2012 

As a lot of my shows ended on Disney channel i kind of step away and focus more on the CW and would watch everything they had I also during this time started to watch MTV and vh1 and the shows they had on there. my movie preference was the same as are today I'll watch anything that looks good to me. I slow down as a "hardcore" gamer and during this time i found the sims 2 then it was sims 3 came out and i was over the moon about it, but my love of reading grew as well twilight, house of night, Ellen Hopkins books along with Laurie halse Anderson books were my life. i read a lot of young adult books, but my reading was slow and i took my time with books. During this time my music taste grew a lot with having a computer I could listen to music on youtube and find new artists and types of music this is the period i got into Linkin Park,  evanescence, pink, and a whole lot more. I went from this little old country loving girl to someone who loves all kind of music. that I threw the ages of 14-20 

now 2012- until now 

my taste is stilling growing, but i do fall back on old fave definitely in music and video games while i have found a few new fave calls of duty(video games) and Alain Ant Farm (band) i just don't feel like the newer music speaks to me and a lot of new games is about shooting people and i just want to have fun. movies are the same as it was then but a lot more horror movies tv i don't watch much but when i do it normal MTV or VH1 or something I've picked up on DVD/ Blu-ray so it not the most current show or season of a show. Now i went from the child who disliked reading to young women who will go off on you if you start talking to her while she has a book in her hands. i gave changed a lot over the year a grew as a person as well as a reader and whatever tag you want to throw on me. 

with that said this is my life in books, movies, tv, music, and games hope this brings up some good memories for you and happy reading.

Birthday Haul

Okay For once i didn't Buy nor get any books for my birthday now got cards from my parents and in-laws. The main present was a trip to one of my fave place Gatlinburg Tennesse. We ended up staying at the Old Creek Lodge and it was the best place i stayed at i thought the Hampton close by was great this place top it now i don't travel a lot, but if you like rusic themes and like to have a little luxury for a good price for 4 night it was just under 700 with taxes. What i love about it three things the balcony had a view of the river and the mountains, the bed was comfy as fuck and finally jacuzzi tub. The food we only had about three places planned Bennets because of their bbq food, pancake pantry do i have to say more pancakes duh, and Donut Frair for the airiest, and delicious donuts at least i haven't found anything better. now we ate twice at one of my fave places sadly there not one close to me that i know of any more but TGI Fridays frist time on the way down for lunch and had to get my fave thing Green beans the second time we which for more of a lighter meal and again got my green bean fries and chicken quesadilla now i wasn't a big fan of the quesadilla ( big chunks of onions and not a big fans of Onion i can handle small bites but the were chunks and the onion flavor ) we ate at other places like Johnny Rocket, flapJacks, texas roadhouse grill, along with a few other places. now what did I actually get we bought a few bath bombs so i could fully Enjoy that tub. We hot a lot of different teas and spices. I forgot my sunglasses and got a pair that better for about the same price, and Fudge omg it so good we also got three bottles of hard cider along with a bottle of wine. it was a fun time with my husband and we went to Starbucks and i found my drink Peach Green Tea Lemonaid yum. well see you tomorrow with another post.

Birthday Vacation

Once in my life i took a trip as a birthday thing with my husband now we both got our fave places to go in... Gatlinburg Tennesse about a lot of them are the same for us we ate at some new places as well. the haul is a later post. we ate too much food Bennets, donut friar, and so many other good places yes there were duds but let not talk about them i actually found hard cider and wine i can drink and not feel like i drunk pure alcohol, but that beside the point.  we went to the aquarium down there and was happy with it now i don't compare things is not right, and it was pretty good everything was so fun some was a one and down other would-be things we do as much as possible. it was an amazing trip that i didn't want to come home from 

Birthday Memories

hey, every its My birthday today so let go down memory lane and see what I remember so this should be a short one for sure. See my birthday came the day after my grandma so it's not like anyone forgot it, but I was never given a huge party or anything like that growing up we didn't have money and whatever money my dad had would be gone by Monday so there was nothing most year coming from him. there were a few years where my dad's friends would get together and do something for me I remember one year one of his friend's girlfriend dressed up like a clown and made me a balloon animal. another year when I was in girl scouts my troop leader took me out and got an ice cream cake and then on my birthday dad's friend went out after she learned it was my birthday and bought a cake that night and decorated in the car before she brought it in. last year I lived in Florida my dad took me to the arcade and ditched me there to go to the bar down the way. since I moved I've never done anything particular for my birthday that was a big thing every year at some point my family takes me out for dinner, my husband will ask for a list and not listen to me when I say pick like three items and buy everything. and last year I treated my self to a movie :D. this year it the first time well let us just say I have a post coming soon to explain that line and will stop right there. with that said I'll just go and enjoy this day.

Blog talk: Over the year

Been going through some of the first posts I've posted on this blog and they are bad spelling grammar, along with some are just a line of two, but it was a lot more personal back then. I used to write poems and let you know what was going on in my personal life and over the years I've stepped back and kind of put a wall up from the personal stuff and kept to books, movies and games, and even that it more focus on books. When I started this blog it was a personal blog just something to put my thoughts out there in the world. Now it just focuses on my thoughts on books and now I'm struggling because not every book I read I have a lot of thought and if I wait until the end of the month my thoughts are so jumbled that I have a hard time thinking this fully though. I have a problem where if this takes too long to right I want to hurry up and finish the post so sometimes my work seems force or lacking. I've been doing this blog for almost 8 years now I started back in 2011 on a whim and now it this I'm not sure it not a big-time blog or anything by a long shot but it still a part of me that I put out in the world. I'm not saying I'm going to go back and be more personal, but I might add a few more personal type post here in the near future.

Update

Hey guys, the past few months I've had time to fully review books and starting tomorrow I'll be going back to working a full-time job so the reviews will be sparely I'll try to do thought updates. With that said I will try to a mash-up review  each month starting April so it will be book i read the month before i might do multiple ones depending on how many books I read each month

2017 wrap up

This year had it ups and downs but it almost over. Now i know things for this blog didn't go the way i plan but hey it happen i'm kind of getting burned out of review, and feel like i am just repeating my self rather i like the book or not it just all sound the same at least to me. life wise has been to much on the negative side of thing like last year. i found my mom and little sister, along with having an aunt find me that was put up for adoption as a baby and got engaged. yes there was a lot of hard work and some thing never go posted on time, but at least it still posting things which it been 6 years wow. before i get to rambling so i'll talk to you guys later and hopefully i don't have to take to many breaks after june.

Blog News

guys i think i'm going to take a break with the holidays coming up i need a break defiantly a mental break with planning a wedding, family stuff along with work and keeping the house clean and reading 50 million books hopefully when the new year comes i'll be back

Song that inspire me

I've just heard this song last week and it spoke to me growing up everyone who know me knows i had to grow up faster then i was suppose to everyone have there battle and some are harder then other. Mine just might be one the rougher side of thing but i made it threw the scars can be seen but they are there.

TV Show i used to watch Part one

This Series will be focus on shows i used to watch not ones i watch now in any form ( even if i watch it after it hot dvd or netflix)
the first TV Show will be Charmed. Now i won't say I've seen every episode made but when i watch it i couldn't miss an episode. when i was younger you could even find me watch the reruns that would run in the early mornings. over all i love the magic and always wish i was part of that world even though they were always fighting the bad guys and yeah some of them down right dangerous the sisters always made it out well almost always. i recommend it for lovers of witchy things

This Is Personal

Now anyone who reads my blog knows last year i lost probably the most impotent personal in my life. Well Today marks the one year mark of when it happen. there are still days where the pain can be crippling those days i just try my best to hide it all from the world and hold it in until i'm alone. i have this weird thing about crying in front of people and letting people see me hurting. I've Learn over the last year though i am stronger then i thought i was. I always thought when my grandma would die i would crumble or just try to denied that it happen and just work all the time. neither really happen i just kept my head up and lived my life the best i could. that all i want to say befoer i get thinking to much and break down

life update

Okay guys here an update on what been going on in my life. I'm trying to get some post set up for September and October. So that why i haven't been post any reviews this month even though i have been reading a lot of stuff mostly manga. last weekend i went to an convention for a couple of the games me and my boyfriend play with a couple of his friend. Work been hot mostly working in a warm place during summer can get a little stick to say the least. Home projects are mostly done for this year i still got to get new doors and paint my library along with a few touch up in the other ones. that what going on in this part of the world bye bye.

Uh oh...

Uh oh it looks like I've been slacking this month i guess working 6 days a week along with a birthday weekend ( boyfriend's)  will make you lose track of some things. no i haven't disappeared or give up on this blog i just been really busy and not reading as much i have been watching some movies and shows i'll get the reviews written up here soon then i'll schedule them up

Random Blog

this is just a little update figure i haven't really been post  to much. I've been in a slump kind of and what i have read I've been drawn to is more horror and i want to save those reviews for September and  October. Work is picking up and the weather is getting warmer so getting some work done around the house is going to be a little a challenging  so not as much time for reading but i'm trying i'm working my way though the bye bye man and other short stories so i'll have a review up for that in October probably other then that not much going on beside starting to work 6 days a week and trying to take care of everything

Update

I think my problem is that i'm craving horror I've been watching a lot of horror movies and reading from some of my horror magazines so as of today i'm picking up at least one horror theme novel until i get tired of them that is now those review will be in October so you'll have to wait on those if i feel all the spaces for October i'll put them in to September for B.E.D.S love ya see you for my Friday post and Sunday horror movie mini review

Update

hey guys i know i've been slicking on the posting lately next month i'm going to start back up doing the movie review every weekend lately me and the boyfriend been watching some horror movies. we started with the Freddy movies now we are watching the jason's movies and i mean them all. (i'll have to to a movie list soon of all the movies we have on dvd and blue ray but it a lot so no promises) so starting on the frist sunday of the next movie i'll be doing mini reviews on each of the movies we have watched. so as of now  we have watched all the freddy movie including the remake and art 1 though 4 of the friday the 13th movies.