The Past Ten Years

Ten years ago i was halfway through my 10th Grade year of high school still very close off to people and not trusting people outside of my family. I had what I would call " school Friends" where I'd take to them at school and eat lunch with them and talk to them online, but I wouldn't hang out with them or go out somewhere and have fun. I rarely left the house on my own to go anywhere even up the street to the store to get a pop. Now ten year is and isn't a long time at the moment it feels like it slipping through your fingers and then when your sitting looking back. A lot has happened, and change in the past ten years one i graduated from high school as well as two years of college i had three jobs and found love as well as gotten Married. Now there were a lot of lost cousins, aunts, uncles, and the biggest one my grandma. Now i did have people come back n to my life like my mom and my uncle from her side of the family sadly my grandpa on my mom's side of the family pasted aw before i got the chance to see him again. I've learned to cut people out of my life that not good for me to be around, and i know there this big thing about who they are family, but even family can be bad for your health. I have a family that has a very toxic personality and i don't need people who are going to bring me down and or put me down as well as those who are close to my heart. No one perfects well all screwup and we don't need them thrown in her faces, by people who can't check themselves. I also don't need someone who is a big trigger for my depression and anxiety in my life as well as someone who won't take responsibility for their own lives and save themselves from themselves. hopefully in the next year it a lot more positive than negative, and that I can keep getting healthy, because i know the last ten year wasn't 100% heathy for once o it i hide my self away from the world and let my past and what i had gone through control so much of my life to the point where it was miserable. I want to count on me more and not other for my happiness I also want to be able to focus more on my mental health because for so much of the past 20 years I've been depressed and so ready to just end it all that who knows what would have happened if i hadn't met my husband when i did. Now the People in my life now I'm happy with and no it not perfect, but it good enough for me, and I'm happier then i was at the start of the last decade. So here to learning to love Ourselves, finding happiness within, and become a healthier, and better me.